NIKKI SIXX: I Don't Want To Stand On A Soapbox And Tell People, 'Don't Drink, Don't Use Drugs'

Kyle Ryan of The A.V. Club recently conducted an interview with MÖTLEY CRÜE bassist Nikki Sixx. A few excerpts from the chat follow:

The A.V. Club: Do you have any regrets when you look at the book now, like not being able to enjoy CRÜE's success at its zenith?

Nikki Sixx: We had a really good time, to be honest with you, when we were out there doing what we were doing. That particular year, the reason I time-capsuled it was because the bottom for me, personally, had started to fall out, and I didn't know why. I was able to ask a lot of questions inside the actual journals that I really didn't have an answer to. Twenty years ago, I didn't know what the hell was going on. I'm lucky to have been through enough time to have figured it out, and I thought it was time to expose that for people who have similar issues.

I'm finding that people reading the book are saying, "You came from one background, I came from this background — you were a rock star, I was a CEO. I didn't have a heroin/coke problem, but I had a pill problem. But I also fell from grace, didn't know how to get recovery, and I am now in recovery." People tell me that their kids read it and told them they'll never do drugs — "This book really shows me where it goes." It's interesting that different layers to this story are touching different people, and to me, that's the greatest gift, besides the money going to Covenant House. For me, the questions got answered after these journals were written. Also, all the commentary from parents, bandmates, girlfriends, and friends, that helps paint the picture too. You can now go, "No wonder this guy was so fucked-up. No one in his family can even tell him what really happened." And I still don't know.

The A.V. Club: It's interesting to see your mother and grandfather giving completely different versions of the same story. What were you hoping to get out of that?

Nikki Sixx: I wasn't really hoping to get anything out of that — I just wanted them to tell their version of the truth, because I felt like they needed a forum. And what it shows is that a dysfunctional family can have a massive impact on youth. Those formative years, from about zero to 7, those are important years. For me, they were completely fucked-up. I know people who have had worse — the kids that we work with at Covenant House have had worse. They were on the street, and they can't get off the street. For me, my choice was eventually to run away from home.

The A.V. Club: So it was about showing the effects of a bad home life?

Nikki Sixx: Yeah, a lot can happen. People don't look at that. They think, "Oh, my kids are going to be fine. My kids are resilient." But at a certain point, the damage starts. They start to feel pain—and when they feel bad, they start to take painkillers. We want to kill the pain.

The A.V. Club: How much of that has informed you as a parent?

Nikki Sixx: Oh, massively, massively. Every day, I wake up, and the first thing I think of is my kids. Then I do what I do with my life, which is to be a creative person no matter what I do — I have a clothing line with Kelly Gray that's doing really great, and I'm a photographer, a songwriter, and I have the band SIXX: A.M., which did a soundtrack to the book, and then MÖTLEY CRÜE. Then the day ends, and I'm back to my kids again. Because I know that these years, I'll never get them back.

The A.V. Club: How old are your kids?

Nikki Sixx: Well, I've got 16, 13, 12, and 6-and-a-half.

The A.V. Club: Teenagers — that seems like it would be brutal.

Nikki Sixx: [Laughs.] You know, sometimes they say the apple doesn't fall too far from the tree. In my case, I am pretty fortunate. They're pretty balanced, cool kids, going through pretty much the same thing all the other kids go through. There's nothing unique about me as a parent. I am a parent. My kids are kids. We do the best we can do. I don't think they know a lot about what I do, other than that I am in this crazy band, MÖTLEY CRÜE.

The A.V. Club: Sixteen and 13, that's around the time kids start doing drugs. As someone in recovery, how do you approach that?

Nikki Sixx: I approach it the same way I approach it with anybody I'm talking to about the book: Behind door Number 1, I can tell you what's there. And behind door Number 2, I can tell you what's there. Behind door Number 1, there is death, destruction, insanity, jail — it's not a pretty picture. Behind door Number 2 is our life now. In the end, I can only enforce the law so much underneath the roof of our house. In life, I can't enforce any laws. I can only say, "Read the book. It describes your choices — pick it." I am not a preacher. I don't want to stand on a soapbox and tell people, "Don't drink. Don't use drugs." With my kids, I say "Don't drink. Don't do drugs." But when they turn 21, they can drink. I hope they never use drugs, but people make their own decisions. When they're old enough, they are going to have the chance to make their own decisions. I just hope I have given them enough love and support, and the ability to come and talk to me if they need to.

Read the entire interview at The A.V. Club.