THE HAUNTED Frontman: 'I Want To Get Back Out On Tour And F*cking Crush'July 20, 2006
THE HAUNTED frontman Peter Dolving has posted the following message on his official blog:
"Slowly over the last couple of weeks my crackling psyche has been regaining some of the balance I felt I'd completely lost there for a while.
"I'm getting back in shape physically and I've come to understand that I really need to be very fucking careful with myself. With this new album coming out I suppose I'm both scared and proud at the same time.
"The last batch of festival shows have gone really well and I've been enjoying myself and the fact that my back and left shoulder is not just a knot of pain anymore.
"Seeing CELTIC FROST play at With Full Force in Germany was a revelation. I used to really dig this band called THE YOUNG GODS for their sheer heaviness and how their dark music made me feel less fucked up inside somehow. Well, standing there as CELTIC FROST started off the show with 'Procreation', I saw it — a clear line in music from ROBERT JOHNSON, LEDBELLY, HANK WILLIAMS, WOODY GUTHRIE, HOWLIN' WOLF, MUDDY WATERS, ERIC CLAPTON, LED ZEPPELIN, BLACK SABBATH, THE STOOGES, LOU REED, THE MOTHERS OF INVENTION, DEEP PURPLE, IRON MAIDEN, JUDAS PRIEST, METALLICA to the likes of CAN, KING CRIMSON, NEU, KRAFTWERK, NICK CAVE AND THE BAD SEEDS, THE BIRTHDAY PARTY, EINSTURZENDE NEUBAUTEN, FAD GADGET, DER KOWALSKI, DAF, CABARET VOLTAIRE, THROBBING GRISTLE, FOETUS, SWANS, SONIC YOUTH, GUN CLUB, FRONT 242, LAIBACH, THE CURE, DEAD CAN DANCE, COCTEAU TWINS, REDLORRYYELLOWLORRY, SLAB, GANX, GANG OF FOUR, PIL, PETER GABRIEL, SIOUXSIE & THE BANSHEES, THE JESUS AND MARY CHAIN back to MUDHONEY, SCREAMING TREES, SOUNDGARDEN, JESUS LIZARD, CLUTCH, BIG CHIEF, SLEEP, NEUROSIS, BIG BLACK, SHELLAC, FUGAZI, ISIS, MASTODON, DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN, TOMAHAWK, SLAYER, and a thousand more. Somehow it made sense. Somehow it felt as if I could understand what the fuck I was doing, why I play in a band to begin with. Not that I could explain it really in any other way than music...
"Shit, I've spent so much of my life with music as a lifeline that sometimes I've felt it was all I had, period. Well, there is more to life, and I'm actually starting to believe I can live a little, though I'll start off with baby steps, since I'm only just learning.
"I've been feeling frustrated as fuck lately. And yes, I know part of it's 'cause we're putting out a new record and all that comes with it. Photos, interviews, participating in the circus sideshow again. But when it comes down to it, I'm so in love with the basic goal of it all — playing live.
"Getting ready, warming up, slowing down the thoughts, shutting off the outside world and giving up to the music and letting go. I didn't really start getting into playing live until I started playing metal and hardcore back in '93, just a kid. But that stuff hit home right away. It was the shit I'd been looking for since I was six years old. I want every muscle in my body to ache after a show. I want to feel bruised, drained, fucked and free to die if I fucking please.
"Yeah, I found something in me today I didn't know was there, and it's a somber kind of feeling. Like I've accepted something about myself. And no matter what fucker comes my way, I have in me the power to find strength to not let myself break. I want to get back out on tour and fucking crush. I want to tear myself to shreds with sound. I want to rise through the fucking sludge that is my past and look around and feel I'm a part of where I am. Every day, every moment I succeed in not perceiving myself as a detached spectator is victory as opposed to the malfunctioning twee space monkey I feel like most of the time. Scary though, reaching out for life when living like a zombie has been comfortable for such a long time. But I think I deserve it. I know my kids do.
"I want my daughter to feel and be free. I want her to be as whole and autonomous as she deserves to be. But every time people like the New American Century, the World Trade Organization, G8 etc. act on their agendas to further empower and enrich the aristocracy of man it makes my blood boil. Ambulances should be sent out. Big calm people in white jackets should swiftly subdue the board members of the Fortune 500 and take em in for mental care and years of therapy and tender rehumanizing. Exxon Mobil $36,130,000,000. WalMart $11,231,000,000 Chevron $14,099,000,000 Ford Motor $2,024,000,000 ConocoPhillips $13,529,000,000 General Electric $16,353,000,000 Citigroup $24,589,000,000 American Intl. Group $10,477,000,000...
"That's all profit so far 2006 to split up between shareholders and executives on different levels... If I could summon spirits to reeeeaaaaaaaally fuck with someone, I'd send em out to do some serious damage to people like Ted Turner, Silvio Berlusconi, the Walton family, Prince Alwaleed Bin Talal Alsaud and about another 100,000 or so people who all live so far away from the ordinary realities of common people that it's beyond all reason. The rich protect each other holding between them ultimatly the real power in the world. Yet their main motivation for existence is procuring their personal wealth and further distancing themselves from consequences. They're criminals, really. But I doubt in most cases they mean harm anymore than a dude that sticks up a gas station for cash to buy crack, or hub caps or any other stupid reason. Nevertheless they get their money from continuous advanced theft. Nope, I don't much like 'em. I don't know if there's anything I can do about it, except small things, choices in what I choose to consume, choices in who I support and how I chose to live my life. Well, I do my best, it's all I got..."
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